Update on breast feeding

After a really great breast feeding session a few evenings ago, here's an update:

Last night (after having such great success earlier) I tried again. In the middle of the night I hoped for that "roll over and put him to the breast" ease of the night feeds everyone talks about. I tried a number of times, but he started really crying and clearly didn't want anything to do with the boob. so I grabbed the bottle of breast milk I had sitting for him and we both went back to sleep.

Then the next day I tried again to breast feed. This time he became so hysterical at the sight of my boob, yes, he clearly could see it when I whipped it out and worked himself into a frenzy. I calmed him down with pacy (our name for his pacifier), then tried again (3 times), but by the 3rd time I've never hard him scream so loud and I once again determined that the breast feeding just isn't for me.