I've been super busy the last few days, but wanted to post just briefly. I’ve started back at work and have had to figure out how to pump while out and about. I’ve started pumping while driving to and from the NICU. Yes, while driving. I’m sure I’ve received some funny looks if people really “looked”.
I’ve been spending about 6-7 hours a day at the NICU along with working and pumping (total pump time a day= 3 hours or so). Eating and sleeping seem to be loosing out.
Kaitlyn is back in the Transitional NICU room (yeah, so much quieter).
Kaitlyn has not been doing well the last few days, she’s been unusually fussy and for 2 days now has had projectile vomiting. She's never been a fussy baby. She's eating even less or none at all compared to even just a week ago. She's supposed to be getting better, but instead seems to be back-sliding. They have no idea why. Everyone is stumped. Brian and I couldn't be more frustrated.
I’ve been getting a bit teary myself, as she still just isn’t eating. I feel like there is just something I should be doing different and that I’m lacking in motherhood skills because I just can’t get my daughter to eat. She’s now only eating about 10-20 cc’s out of a bottle before she gets royally pissed and just refuses to take any more.
Sorry about the short report, I’m tired, have to pump and am just basically in a downer mood.
Kaitlyn’s birthdays are in a few days. On the 4th she will be actually 4 months old and 1 month old adjusted. She has been in the NICU now for 120 days.
This is not what I expected parenthood to be all about. They say that “Patience” is something that parenthood teaches you. That’s for sure.