All I can saw is, WOW, I can't believe all the drama that my last post caused. It caused me 2 sleepless nights as I debated how to answer, but instead I just let it be.
I've got to say:
I now feel if/when I post all the great things that Kaitlyn does (that I don't normally have a lot of time to post about because there ARE so many great things) that I'm doing it because readers have told me to. uggh. I hate that pressure.
I've been dealing with some serious lack of sleep as Quinn is refluxy/colicky. It's been very difficult on me. Guess that's what motherhood is all about, just learning to operate on a totally lack of sleep with a baby who is either really upset or happy/laughing. We have extremes with Quinn. He goes 2 hours straight at night time cycling between crying, eating, burping spitting up, sleeping (for about 3 minutes) for 2 hours straight. He's no closer to sleeping more than 3 hours at a time. During the day he only sleeps for 20 minutes at a time. I've been begging to my docs to get him a different reflux med.
Kaitlyn is amazing. There are so many times EVERY single day that she does the most amazing things. Her eating has been tremendous as of late (was going to do a post solely on this subject) as I'm in awe at the difference in my little girl in the last year especially in the last 2 months. Her speech has just blossomed lately, she's talking all the time and is now saying more sentences. Just yesterday for the first time she started asking: "What's that?" Now that she's figured out I'll answer, she asks "what's that" for everything! it's her "why" question that I'd heard about. We went to costco and she asked "what's that" about a million times and it was joyous!
I tend to use my blog as my own cathartic therapy. I used to journal when I was younger. When I've gone back and re-read my journals, it seemed I always wrote about the bad stuff, not the good stuff. I think that I feel better after getting things off my chest, hence why the negative posts, and don't bother with the good posts (just too many little amazing moments and too busy) Please keep that in mind if my blog has been negative. I need to vent. Doesn't everyone?
It's now New Years Eve hug your children, hug your loved ones and be joyous!
New Years day update:
I forgot to mention a few things, I didn't want to delete the negative comments on my blog as I do believe in freedom of speech and differing opinions. Just as not everyone has to agree with me, by deleting "negative" comments isn't really allowing freedom of speech on all sides. Also, I think it can be helpful to take in negative comments, absorb and process them and see if there is anything that could be true. I'm always up for growing. Hence why I went a few days without responding I was too mad and upset and wanted to calm down a bit.
Thanks everyone for your support and I hope your 2009 is starting out great.